2003-11-21 - 11:40 p.m.
So here is the abridged version. I met a guy, had a great time, started to fall but kept myself held back. Love him, yes. In love, no. Difference yes. Would it have gotten there, yeah it could have.
What bothers me more is that timing was bad and that I'm numb. I don't know what I feel. "Im novicane, I'm numb and nothings real."
Ive been a super collasal bitch lately and I really cant help it. I'm in a funk I think. Somehow I ended up in this non-ending bitch fest and I don't know why. I am tired of attitude from other people. I'm myself and thats the end of it. I'm not taking anyone's shit and I don't give a fuck. They can all suck my big black dick. I'm tired of censoring myself or being nice. Fuck that. Yeah I have gone throught his before but I was still reserved. I can't do that anymore. "Sweet dreams are made of these, who am I to disagree, Ive traveled the world and the seven seas, everybodys lookin for something." They just aren't going to find it with me.
Tonight's mood : Numb, stone cold bitch
Tonight's soundtrack: Eventually - Pink, Numb - Pink, Fuel - Had a Bad Day Again, April Fools - Rufus Wainwright, Outside - Staind, Bother - Stone Sour, Baddest Bitch - Trina.
but the song that I'm really feeling is Fuel - Had a Bad Day Again. You know the drill folks, here are the lyrics.
FUEL LYRICS
"Bad Day"
Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again.
Spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace.
Smeared the lipstick on her face.
Slammed the door and said "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again."
And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
And had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note it said, "I'm sorry, I had a bad day again."
