2003-09-03 - 12:48 p.m.
Troy aka Geraldo was sentenced to an indefinate period in homo exile on Tuesday September 2, 2003. Mr. Geraldo was sentenced to exile for being a triffling lying back stabbing huzzy.
Crimes commited include obsessing with friends of yours truly and partaking in sexual contact with said individuals. Although I was not involved with Mr. Geraldo at the time and had no intentions of becoming so involved again it is still heinous that this person would think it completely ok to puruse and defile my closest friends and fraternity brothers.
The situation is quite reminiscient of two individuals in my past. One being Nick Ash. Nick and I had no involvement. However, he pursued all of my friends and made sexual advances that made all of them quite uncomfortable. Mr. Ash had gained my respect and confidence only to violate them for his own selfish purposes. This is a prime example of what should not be done to someone who is a "friend".
The other example reaches back to Cap'n Asshole himself. Although much different in that I was in love with Cap'n and had deep feelings for him it is the same in that my trust was betrayed. Mr. Geraldo asked the brother involved not to tell me about the entire mishap. I actually would have proabably found the entire thing funny were it not for his attempt to hide it and say that he was the innocent in the matter. Highly reminiscient of the episode between he and myself when he claimed, as he does this time, that he was not the initiator but instead the other party was.
It is also quite a parallel of the past story in what he said to me during the discussion of the issue. Comments were made about me being his closest friend and caring about me. Mr. Geraldo knows my past and knows that I am damaged goods. Why he would be so heinous as to think that I would fall for such a bullshit line astounishes and boogles the mind. People when I warn you and tell you that I am a damaged psycho bitch and give you examples of what not to do to me, head the warning...So anyway I have my theories about why Geraldo is so concerned about my not talking to him and DLP casting him into exile. I know too much. Yes yes, knowledge is a powerful and dangerous thing. Im not threatening to use it. In fact I really dont care. I just dont want drama reappearing in my life and this Geraldo promises to bring more if given oppurtunity. I don't think he has concern for me or our friendship is all im saying. He has proven that. Until someone enters a plea on his behalf the exile remains indefinite.
And why do I not have scorn for my brother. Because he is my brother and there is a bond between us that exists which only the deepest treachery can break. And as far as I'm concerned he didnt do shit wrong.
Back to me being damaged... Ive been hurt in my past by people who were trusted and close. people that were responsible in some way or should have felt responsiblity to protect me in some say. I don't take it lightly when my trust is violated. The fact that he found it necessary to lie and conceal shows that he felt what he was doing or did was wrong. If not he would not have cared if I had known and he would not have tried to pass the blame or defend his actions except to say, "We aren't together and other than friendship there is no emotional bond." That could have solved it and saved him. OH and by the way. . . Just to reemphasis some things said in the past, my description of the perfect man was a composite of the peopel I listed and their attribute. It was not saying that anyone of them was individually. Except for Marc, he will be perfection till the end.
Classes have started and a bitch is busy as hell. I have 5 classes and all of them are just reading shit. Busy busy busy. One is all mystery novels, that is going to boring as hell.
Smooches kids.
