2003-07-22 - 1:46 p.m.
So my favorite episode of Alley McBeal is where the love of her life Billy passes away in a courtroom while giving his closing arguments. As he is moving closer to that white light he says that the most important thing in life is love. He confesses to her that he's always loved her despite what he may have said or done and that she was one of the most important things in his life. Before he dies as she is holding his head in her arms he tells her he loves her. And peacefully slips away. Billy was the love of Alley's life. Much the way that you know who was the love of mine. I'm always going to love him but no I'm not still in love. Anyway because it made me think of him I called him to see how life was treating him, hoping he would tell me he had West Nile or SARS. No I don't wish him harm I just want justice. I want vendicated. Anyway he didn't answer so I left him a voicemail.
He shows up at my job not to long after I arrive there and we talk for about 20 min. Shortly thereafter, maybe about an hour or so, he brings me a type-written letter with my name on it. The letter is as follows"
Jazz,
Hey, it was great to see you again. I'm glad you to hear you've quit smoking! That's really brave of you. . . I'm sure that must be very hard to do. You look great, too. Such a cutie. . . :)
Sorry you're so bored, but if it's any consolation, I feel the same way. I guess we're just going through that awkward twenty-something stage in our lives. . you know, where we've reached "adulthood", but we really don't feel like adults yet. We're just learning how to play the game. . . integrating ourselves into the "adult" culture. He, he. (at least I HOPE that's what it is, or else life just plain sucks!)
Anyway. . I'm glad you called. . .I was just thinking about you, too. I hope that sometime later in life we can live together again. I think we'll do better next time. We'll have more fun and spend more time together. But, no matter what happens in the next few years, I'll still look back on the times when it was just you and me and smile. And laugh. And laugh some more. We did some pretty crazy shit.
I love you, Brandon.Take care of yourself.
I'll see you soon.
THE END
So here's the dilly. First off my former roommate is an english major. What the hell happened to periods and grammer. Next thing what the fuck!!??!!??!!??!!??!! "I hope that sometime later in life we can live together." He is still with his boyfriend, you know my replacement. They are still wearing silver wedding bands as if they are married. So please someone tell me what that is all about. He will look back and laugh and I will look back in anger. How is that fair? Why can't I get pass the anger? And the worse part is I'm thinking does this mean you finally miss me and love me. Do you finally realize that he's not the one and it was me all along. Then I am angry again. I want to send this letter to Dan and warn him. But I couldn't very well do that. I had to learn on my own. So does he.
Motherfuckers!
Could you find it in your heart to make this go away, and let me rest in pieces.
