2002-11-24 - 12:33 a.m.
THE PERFECT MAN:
1. A man as big and strong as Andy Shella. A man that can pick my big ass up and hug me tight.
2. A man that surprises me and keeps me guessing kinda like Craig. I never know what to really expect. Just someone that keeps it fun and non-monotenous.
3. A man that loves me like Mark. Mark cares about me like no other I have ever known. And he is intune to me. I don't have to tell him what I am feeling or thinking. He already knows.
4. A man as smart as Troy. He is like a super genius. Really smart men just turn me on. They can stimulate my mind not just my body.
5. A man that considers his future and has goals. Jeff has goals. I just don't know that there was an extent to them. I know that he had the next 5 to 10 planned out but beyond that maybe he isn't a good example. Maybe my dad is a better example.
Strangely enough looking at the things I just put down, I kinda want a man like my dad. I don't want a man that looks like him. But the caring, the intelligence, the sense of humor and spontaneity, the goals and consideration toward the future. Those are all things I was taught to value by my dad. And when I think about it, I am a lot like my step-mom and mother. I am a combination of the two of them. Like both of them I love taking care of the people I care about and if my family and friends are happy, I'm happy.
WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
How the hell did this happen?
Fuck that, I want a man that scratches his balls, flys by the seat of his pants, lives by the moment not even the day just by the second. I want a man that I can push around boss around and make my little bitch!
By the way, Pablo, your'e an idiot. Its nothing you did. Its what you didn't do. How could you not know that I am crazy about you? Another thing I realized about all of the men that I listed above is that they are all friends. The perfect man is a friend. He was a friend before I became interested he, will be a friend if it does not work. The very next time he will be my friend.
