2002-10-06 - 10:28 p.m.
Dreams are a mother beotch. I don't think you understand how bad dreams can be. I dreamt about Cap'n Asshole for the first time in a very long time. But it was no ordinary dream. It was. . . not a nightmare, not a fantasy, kinda just weird.
I woke up in a hotel room. The hotel I work in as a matter of fact. I was staying in an ND2. For you non-hotel folk thats a non-smoking room with two double beds. Anyway, in the bed next to mine was my brother. I looked over and noticed that there was someone laying in the bed with him. When I got up and pulled back the covers to see who it was I was shocked to find Cap'n Asshole wearing his favorite sweat shirt cuddled up with my brother.
I didn't get angry at all. More than anything I was confused because my brother is straight.
I then walk out into the hallway to go to the bathroom and suddenly im back in my old apartment. When I get to the bathroom I find Cap'n Asshole's new boyfriend, my replacement, jerking off in the doorway. He came on my floor. I went and grabbed paper towel and handed it to him and asked him to clean up behind himself. Then went back to my bed and pulled the covers over my head.
That was the end of the dream.
WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!?!?!?! Does anyone understand my shock and confusion at this dream. The first dream I have that I can remember in 10,000 years and its this one.
I tried to make links to real life and figure out what the dream meant. The only thing I got was I remembered that in a fucked up moment of friendship passion or whatever it was, Cap'n Asshole said to me, and I quote, "We will always have masturbation." We were at Cafe Pizzeria on Kirkwood. It was after his best friend's wedding and we were talking about what had started to happen to our relationship. He said that to me. I still can't believe he said that to me. I really can't believe I remember that.
