2002-10-03 - 6:59 p.m.
Ok So I made the biggest dumb ass mistake last night. I don't normally kiss people. I know it seems like either thats really weird to some people or really normal. But I don't kiss even the people that I am having sex with. Yeah, quirky I know. But this is why. . .
Those of you that know me know that outside of Cap'n Asshole I have had my share of hibbity dibbity partners but never a relationship. You guys also know that I have intimacy issues. So anyway, I also don't kiss. Julia Robert's in "Pretty Woman" said never kiss a John. Getting right to the point, last night I kissed my John. I have been having sex with him for the last 2 years and never ever have we kissed. Last night we did.
I don't think some of you realize how much kissing changes everything. I don't care what anyone says, but it is in his kiss. Everything you want to know about a man, its there, in his kiss.
So I don't know what this means. Is our relationship evolving into something or is it just whatever it is? Will we remain simply fuck buddies or will we suddenly start some kind of relationship on a higher level. Does anyone else see what the new problem here is.
And Ragen FYI, we didn't have sex. NOW DO YOU SEE WHY I AM SPAZING!!!!!!??????!!?!?!?!?!?!?!
